Monday, February 25, 2008

I like it and I don't

So, I have this job, an internship. I'm sort of sick of doing it so often even though for the past 2 weeks I've only worked one day each week due to snow days and holidays. I just really want a break. I'm looking forward to Spring break, so much. When Marist goes on break, I'm gonna take off from my internship because I just need time to breathe. Of course, that's not going to happen because we're taking a big deal trip to Canada and I'm going to meet a lot of relatives. I don't know. I hope that there will be some time before it and some time after it when I can just be like "ahhhhh" and let it all out, and maybe read a book or two. I'm so sick of school. I can not wait to get out. Just 3 months and I'll be done with school, 4 and I'll be done with my internship. But then I'll have to look into getting a job. I really should start the search before that but I really don't want to do that. I have spoken to my supervisor about it. I need to convince him that I really want to be a counselor, not a teacher, before we can move onto the part about what I am qualified to do and such. Now he's still talking about working over the summer at a school in order to test to see if I like teaching or counseling better. I need to just do the counseling because I need a job in order to get insurance and then to be able to have the money to eventually move out. I don't know if I'm ready to move out. The only living on my own I've done was a semester of college before transferring home and for a few weeks here and there when I've gone on trips without my parents (Barbados, Australia). It's really scary to think about moving out. I don't know. It's really scary to think about getting a REAL job. I had a job for 2 years, but it was part time and retail. I don't know.